Not now, demons.

Dear Demons.

I’d like to take this opportunity to thank you for staying away for so long.  It’s been nice having such a long break from your grasp.  There are a couple of you that I’d like to address in particular;

- Jealousy – I’m rather impressed that you hid your ugly face for all this time.  You were provided with plenty of situations in which you could have popped up.  You’re here now though, and I’d like to tell you to fuck right off.

- Insecurity – Oh, you.  You are like a pimple just waiting to surface.  Once I’m aware of your imminence, I like to deal with you head-on. I’m not giving you the chance to fester and screw up all the times I’ve prevented you from surfacing in the past. You make other unwelcome demons stronger. You are not welcome.  Go play by yourself.

- Control – You’re like this cute little demon that can play both sides.  You’re sometimes so incredibly positive and helpful; providing order and rhythm.  But now, Control, you are creeping up on me, and I don’t want to use you.  I have done better with your nicer cousin; Spontaneity.

- Fear – I suppose, Fear, that you are the foundation of all of these other demons. You feed them.  I’m not sure where you come from this time though. You’re not being given any cues that you should be around.  Please don’t come knocking early.   I like feeling strong.  Don’t screw that up for me.

I am literally and figuratively running from you, demons. Each time I sense you’re close, I will choose to run.   I ran tonight.  I evaded you for a short while.  I will keep doing it.  Sometimes I will cycle away from you.  Sometimes I will paddle or walk, but you are not catching up to me.  I’ve done too much good for myself in the last ten months.  I am strong and I will leave you behind.

Good day.

Love = the little things

I just came back from a really really beautiful wedding for a couple whose love is literally contagious.

I also spent an evening recently watching a bunch of videos by this awesome group called Pomplamoose. Their love is contagious too.

Cuteness:

And also for a better example of their incredible chemistry:

Interview

I’d like to think that this was posted especially for me, as it went up on line 11 minutes before my interview:

I really sincerely hope that things WILL be great. Because this is one giant basket, with a LOT of eggs in it.  Pretty eggs. But eggs none-the-less.

Oh optimism, wherefore art thou now?

Not even a little bit

I’m not feeling melancholy, but boy do I remember it.

Ms. Leah of thxthxthx.com has produced another thank you note that I have related to many times in the past.

Thanks for the thxthxthx, Leah.

Video Linkage

Remember all those times I’ve posted videos up on here and you’ve clicked through on them because you trusted my impeccable taste in visual entertainment or you wanted to prove how terrible it is by watching the video and hrmphing and ughing in response?

Well, while you did that you were contributing to a study on how music videos get shared and viewed.  Blogs and video sites like youtube are the winners:

click on me to read the article!

So in the spirit of continued sharing:

Atomically lazy

I’m reading a book about the beginnig of Atomic bombs and what that meant for our world.

It’s a classic. It’s pretty good.

But then I came across this comic,

and thought… maybe others share my overzealous optimism.

ENGAGED!

Know what!? I don’t care first thing in the morning when your voice is multiple decibles and octaves above what the rest of the elevator is.

I’m not bitter. I love your love.  But I do not want to be surrounded by squeals in such an enclosed space.

Save that shit for your cubicle.

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Ok. Maybe I’m a little bitter.

Craving

I love that feeling you get when you literally crave a particular writing style.

I didn’t realize how much I had missed reading the sweet sweet linguistic stylings of my old roomie until she took a big fat break and then came back with it recently.  Added it to the link list on the right.

You should check her out. She’s kind of extremely awesome.

Horoscope vs. Personality

Both are types of tests, both tend to describe me pretty accurately.  Though I guess the horoscope is more prescriptive, since you can’t really change that aspect of yourself.

Anyway. I find this to be an interesting test result, and want to look back on it in a couple of years to remember:

ENFP

ENFPs are open-minded, imaginative, caring and outgoing. They thrive on the drama of life by observing everything enthusiastically and associating meaning and human motive with all they survey. To the ENFP, no life event is devoid of significance–a belief which may justify others’ perception of them as hyperalert, oversensitive and even suspicious at times. Charming, interactive, charismatic, communicative and ingenious, ENFPs often are expansive in their approach to life, love and work–multitalented individuals who may succeed in a number of creative endeavors, so long as a strong human element is present. “Do this, do that!” jobs demanding strict compliance with rules, regulations and procedures, and attention to logic, facts and details are stressful for most ENFPs. Their characteristically short attention span and diversity of interests may sabotage their accomplishment in enterprises demanding tenacity and single-mindedness. This type’s natural gift for inspiring others often is their salvation: the projects ENFPs start may be completed by their followers.

Relationships ENFPs take their relationships very seriously, but also approach them with a childlike enthusiasm and energy. They seek and demand authenticity and depth in their personal relationships, and will put forth a lot of effort into making things work out. They are warm, considerate, affirming, nurturing, and highly invested in the health of the relationship. They have excellent interpersonal skills, and are able to inspire and motivate others to be the best that they can be. Energetic and effervescent, the ENFP is sometimes smothering in their enthusiasm, but are generally highly valued for their genuine warmth and high ideals.

Strengths
Good communication skills
Very perceptive about people’s thought and motives
Motivational, inspirational; bring out the best in others
Warmly affectionate and affirming
Fun to be with – lively sense of humor, dramatic, energetic, optimistic
Strive for “win-win” situations
Driven to meet other’s needs
Usually loyal and dedicated

Extreme Realness

This is just a straight-up quote from Kate Carraway about an idea she has called ‘extreme realness’ that I can really relate to right now.  I’m glad she’s posting more regularly these days.

Somewhat related to my perspectives on failure (embrace it, own it, climb into it and lay down and get to know how it feels on your skin), “extreme realness” is about doing everything and being everything as it really is all the time.

So, when you like somebody, instead of running in the opposite direction lest they find out and find you uncool (such is our shitty self-esteem, right?), tell them. It’s not that terrifying once you do it. And, when you don’t like somebody, it’s OK to be like “I’m not into it.” Just like that. It’s fine. Rejection doesn’t have to be a pejorative, especially when it’s about something like love, when it just comes down to how good you smell to each other.